I'm a mess

^{Psalm 40:16-17} (THE MESSAGE)

"But all who are hunting for you—
oh, let them sing and be happy.
Let those who know what you're all about
tell the world you're great and not quitting.

And me? I'm a mess. I'm nothing and have nothing:
make something of me.
You can do it; you've got what it takes—
but God, don't put it off!"

I'm with David! I am a mess! I think that's the reason I love Psalms so much. David was a man like me...a traveler, a wanderer, depressed at times, confused other times, hopeful but struggling, optimistic but discouraged, worried but a worshiper. David's life and mine....maybe yours too....are lives full of paradox.

Yes, I'm a mess, I trust and doubt almost in the same moment. I'm joyful and in despair before I can take a breath. It's an exciting life being a human indwelt by God, despairing in this life but hopeful of what's ahead. What a mess that makes us at times. I struggle with it almost all the time and yet I see God working more and more in this mess I have made of everything.

My solution and yours is God himself. It's all about him, he is the one who has made a masterpiece out of my mess. He puts order in the chaos of my life and mind. He brings peace to my panic. It's all about him, he's my hope when I think the sky is falling. He's the sunshine around me when all I can see are clouds. It's all about him, he is my solution and my hope. In my mess I have a wonderful savior who lives with me and moves me through all of my chaos to life, hope, peace, joy and rest.

And me? I'm a mess.

I'm nothing and have nothing:make something of me.

You can do it;

you've got what it takes—but God, don't put it off!"